It’s been.. almost 4 or 5 months since I last blogged, and lots has happened in my life. So much so that I don’t really know where to start. Likely that this blog is and has and always been something that I turn to when I’m stressed and looking to procrastinate! So here goes.
Last year was rough. It was not a good year. I had people ask me why I wasn’t fun anymore, I was stressed, I was confused, I was sad, angry, frustrated and couldn’t really make sense of my life. Sure, I had piles of things going right for me.. I had great friends, awesome coworkers, a boss who was a friend, and so much more. So that brings us to this year. It has been no cakewalk either (although, really, what is a cake walk?) but there have been moments that have just been amazing!
At the end of school last year, I thought about taking on less responsibility and really trying to focus on school, but I couldn’t just do school – that’s not me! Unless I’m running everywhere at once, I’m not happy. So I decided to volunteer for our Health & Counselling Centre. Little did I know that this was one of the best decisions of my life. So I emailed the guy in charge, who I had worked with through Residence…and he said – “there is this position that I think you would be great for”…so now, for the past almost year I have been the first Healthy Campus Crew Volunteer Coordinator. I have learned so much. I learned what it means to work almost from the very beginning to develop a team, an opportunity to lead something that had never existed before. I truly learned what it meant to be a “boss” or authority figure, and how to tailor your outward appearance to suit that role. I also met the best people in the world. Despite never being a part of the PHE team, and not knowing almost anyone of the 45-50 people involved with the team, I have found the most inspiring, loving, heart warming people. I go to Zumba with my coworkers, we go out, we eat (a LOT), we write warm fuzzies, we encourage and we laugh.. A LOT, sometimes to the point where you might collapse on the floor..
I worked on Residence in the past, and those people were equally amazing, but this year has been really fun because I got to meet a ton of people who I NEVER would have met.. most are in science so we all know I would never have class with them! But now, EVERYWHERE I go on campus, I see people I know, whether people from Residence, people from my program, or people from PHE and HCC. In my job we talk a lot about the 5 Ways to Wellbeing, and one of them is #GiveBack – and I really have felt the positive effects of giving back this year – it does so much more for you than you can realize.
I also applied for an award last year, and I assumed, since I hadn’t heard back over the summer that I didn’t get it. It was a long shot. THEN, after having a day when things just took a weird turn for the worse for no good reason at the end of November, I was sitting at home checking my email when I got an email about this award. And it said… Congratulations! You have been chosen as one of this years recipients (1 of 10). Pretty much skyrocketed my mood and made me realize “You are recognized, your work does count, and you are appreciated.”
I have done a lot of growing this year, and these past years. This is what university is about – it’s learning who you are, and what you can do. I am learning how to be an adult within my family, and how to adjust my behaviour appropriately. I am learning how to be a professional, since I will likely not be a student much longer. I am learning how to be genuine, and how to listen (this is a big thing for me.) I am learning how relationships change, mature, and sometimes fade. I am so nervous about what is happening next, but I’m also SO excited to see what life brings my way. And if in 4 years, no one at this school remembers who I am.. that’s okay. I know I brought my best, and *hopefully affected the lives that I did come into contact with.
I met my BF(af) [Best friends, almost forever..in case you were wondering!] and we’ve been writing a story..via text message. It’s the best. I have created art that I feel actually deserves the title of art. I have done nothing extraordinary, but I have loved every minute of it. I have held onto friends from 1st year, I’ve lost others. I’ve made new friends, I’ve connected with professors, I’ve been stuck in New York because of a hurricane! I’ve learned the importance of taking care of myself…well, in the process. I’ve learned I’m a hopeless romantic and very idealistic about love, I’ve learned to appreciate everyone’s story, their background and their present. I’ve learned the positive effects of paying it forward – a smile comes back to you as a hug – love unfolds and spreads and grows!
Well, I’m not quite sure what this blog is about – but I feel like it has a generally positive vibe, and that’s exciting. So, that’s all for now.
Cheers, love, smiles, hope and excitement!